people need to realize that when I push them away, it is not because I do not want them in my life; it is because I want them to push back and to show me that what we have is worth fighting for and they aren’t going to give up that easily.
You know whats fucking scary? The fact that I could literally change my life at any moment. I could stop talking to everyone that makes me unhappy. I could kiss whoever i want. I could shave my head or get on a plane or take my own life. Nothing is stopping me. The entire world is in my hands, and I have no idea what to do with it.
I’ve decided I want to be cremated. Not when I die, just whenever. Surprise me.